Life's a bitch...

you think you have done everything right in your life???
well guess what!!! nopes. highly unlikely. you are bound to take decisions which might feel right at that moment but later on in life you will realize that you committed foul.

there are moments in everyone's life when you are in a fit of anger, feeling depressed or maybe you are in a stage of your life where nothing is happening and everything is stagnant. you just feel idle at all moments.

its not as if you do not enjoy or have fun but then these are short lived memories. maybe you are just craving that enjoyment all the time. but at the end of the day you do kind of feel as if something is missing. not everything is perfect.

random thoughts creep into your mind. you sometimes wish how much things would have been easier if you did not exist. you could just disappear or stay hidden away in some far corner where no one can see you but you can observe everyone. narcissist people might wish for someone else's fatality.

one second you feel love for a person and the moment that person behaves or does something unpleasant you kind of think if you were not present in his/her company.

you start observing people differently. even your friends and family. for some you gain respect and long that they remain omnipresent in your life and for a select few you could not care less even if they disappeared forever.

you know sometimes the worst part is that you don't even know what you want in life. even if you do confusion creeps in regarding whether this is the correct course on which you are treading.

AS I SAID LIFE'S A BITCH. Try ignoring the bitter moments and remember the good ones. and try taking life as it comes. everything will happen the way it has to. you cannot and should not disturb what has been decided for you. and the creepy thoughts, well just try ignoring them else frankly enough life becomes miserable.

Loads of stuff took place in the last couple of months.
got released from training early and got a good enough project in SAP. again broke up and as Chandel says "SHIKHAR IS SINGLE AND READY TO MINGLE" lolzzz... made new friends and found a new apartment near office. finally life is back to normal.
our new home in lucknow is ready to move in. went for the house warming party and met almost all my relatives and family friends.
in bengaluru now and the sad home-office-home routine continues.

P.S.--- guess want something interesting and good to happen in my life :(